You Run Away...

I ran.

I couldn't handle it.

I should've stayed and slap Ichigo across the face for kissing Rukia, I couldn't

I guess it's because Sonic left me and I didn't want Ichigo to leave me.

That probably traumatized my heart.

You run away

You could turn and stay

But you run away from me

I ran out of the club and into the streets.

I must have kept my sense of directions intact because when I looked up, I was in front of my house.

I tried to be your brother

You cried and ran for cover

I slammed the front door and went to my room. Tears clouded my eyes as I stumbled up the staircase. I stood in my doorway.

I made a mess, who doesn't

I did my best but it wasn't enough

I glanced at the picture frame with Ichgio and me. But I knew that was a bad idea because tears swelled up in my eyes again. I slid down to the floor and hugged my knees. For the second time in my life, I cried.

You run away

You could turn and stay

But you run away from me

Why?

Why does this always happen to me?

I just wanted to disappear, maybe someone could finally notice me if I left. I noticed a glass vase sitting next the picture frame. Next thing you know, the vase on the ground, smashed into broken pieces. Before I can control myself, I reached to grab the biggest shard.

I'll give you something you can cry about

On thing you should try it out

Hold a mirror shoulder high

When you're older look you in the eye

When you're older look you in the eye

-DING-DONG-

I stopped just before the glass hit my stomach. Wait, what was I doing? I dropped the glass and stared at my hands. Crimson dripped from my hands to the carpet.

-DING-DONG-

I rushed downstairs and stood at the front door.

I tried but you tried harder

I lied but you lied smarter

You made me guess who was it

I did my best but it wasn't enough

Just when I was about to open the door, I remember the blood on my hands. I rushed to the kitchen and grabbed a washcloth. I clean myself up and walked back to the door. I opened it and my eyes widen a bit.

You run away

You could turn and stay

But you run away from me

“T-Toshiro...?”

He looked from the ground to me with his icy turquoise eyes.

“Dawn? Are you okay?”

I blinked and forced out a smile, “I'm great, why do you ask?”

“I saw you left the club in a hurry and I wondered if you were okay,” he said, his eyes never leaving mines.

“Well, I'm okay, just a little tired, that's all,” I said with a short laugh. Toshiro frowned.

“Stop doing that.”

I stopped laughing and stared at him.

“What do you mean?”

“You're lying to me.”

I nearly gasped. How can he read me like that?! 

“I don't know what you're talking about...” I said, looking away. Toshiro sighed and took a step closer until we were only a foot apart. He grabbed my hands as he continued to stare me down.

“What's wrong?”

You run away (I tried to be your brother)

You could turn and stay (You cried and ran for cover)

But you run away from me ( I made a mess, who doesn't I did my best but it wasn't enough)

“Nothing...”

My eyes were getting cloudy again.

“Nothing...”

I casted my head down and placed it on his chest.

“N-Nothing...”

I didn't want to cry, but I did. I felt a hand comfort my head. My tears stared to fall like the rain right now. I always wonder why does rain fall...? Is it because I was crying? If it's that reason, then the rain understands how I feel.

But that's not something to cry about

A pair of strong yet gentle hands picked me up, bridal style. I had my eyes closed, but I knew it was Toshiro. I opened my eyes and saw that I was in my house, in front of the bathroom. Toshiro set me on my feet and caressed my cheek.

“You must be cold,” he whispered, “Why don't you take a bath?”

I blushed as I nodded.

It's not something to lie about

The water was hot when I settle myself in. I didn't even bother taking off my clothes and I just sat in the water like that. Cold. Wet. And Sad. I pulled my knees to my chest and stared at the tile ahead. A knock came on the door.

“Dawn, everything's okay?”

I didn't answer and the door opened. Toshiro slowly walked in, probably waiting for my reaction. But I didn't mind, I just kept staring at the tiles. He sat next to the tub and rested his head on the wall behind him.

“I'm sorry...” I heard him say.

“It's okay,” I mumbled.

You run away (I tried to be your brother)

You could turn and stay (You cried and ran for cover)

But you run away from me ( I made a mess, who doesn't I did my best but it wasn't enough)

A faint smile appeared on my face.

“Thank you, though, for staying with me...”

//END//

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